Wrapped in cold bed sheets, recalling your encounter.. Chills rush to my spine, every drop of blood flies to that disturbed mind of mine. Your poisonous scent is haunting every inch of me. Your soft breath is still clinging to my chest. I turn in my sheets and everything that makes sense comes crashing down in the dead of night. Thoughts of you are suffocating me. How inevitable it was for me. The no choice is driving me insane, softly caressing every nerve in my brain. Your soft humming is playing in head, it’s leaving cockroaches in my mind. How I wish I could just dump my thoughts in the nearest trash can but I can’t bring myself to lie to me this night. This hopeless love is sinking in, settling in my damaged cells. Those stupid walls sweetly crash down on me tonight. I bittersweetly surrender. Scared I would break down the next day, I welcome the cruel wanting with a worn out sigh. I start chasing your image in my head, taking you in me.. You feel right within me. This is where you should have been from the very moment I saw you in the sunlight. So I keep you there within for another night, preparing for my battles that are cheering for me. I close my lids and your beautiful face illuminates me from within. Your sight is breath takingly impossible to leave behind.
So for tonight and tomorrow, I’ll keep you within.